The Saddest Day

    Today's the day. I've been dreading its arrival for weeks, even months now. Today I have to see A, my husband & best friend, off on his deployment. Today marks the first day of the longest, hardest 6 months of our ((young adult)) lives. In all honesty, I'm terrified.
    When I try to imagine having to live without him, my heart drops into the deepest part of my stomach. I know this is only temporary & that it's something he has to do for work. I also know that his leaving has nothing to do with our relationship, but if I had to describe how this feels I would have to equate it to a break up. He's leaving & there's nothing I can do to get him to stay.

    I have a million questions & there are so many unknowns right now. My mind is racing with thoughts of A & even more thoughts to try to keep my mind off of thinking about him. "What will he be doing while he's over there?" "Will he be safe?" "How often will I be able to talk to him?" "What day will he be home to me?" "Is it too soon to start planing a "welcome home" party?" "Is it August yet??!"

    I do plan to keep busy & be productive while he's gone. There are so many things I want to do during the next 6 months.

Workout

Photography

Clean

Organize

Craft

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