Expectations

    I think I had different expectations for this deployment.
    I assumed that it would be hardest at the beginning & slowly get easier, but as I sit here thinking I fear I may be wrong. Of course saying goodbye was difficult as always & I did cry, but so far this hasn't felt any different than so many of the previous TDYs. Unfortunatly this isnt a TDY, this is a deployment & the difference is a matter of months. I will have to go days without his touch, weeks without his kiss & months without his company. I fear that the further into this deployment we get, the more heartache I will experience. How can I miss him so much already when its only been a day & he hasn't even left the states? I am not prepared for this. At all.
    A left Texas yesterday morning & arrived in Baltimore yesterday afternoon. He'll be in Baltimore until his flight at 9:50PM tonight. From there he goes to Germany, then from Germany to Italy & finally from Italy to his home base. I have no idea about the time frame on all that though. I wish everything wasn't so unsure.    
    
    I knew that with taking multiple days off, there would be a lot of crap to do at work today, but I didn't imagine how much... When I got there papers were all over my desk. Kim called me into her office first thing. She let me know that she had been going easy on me the past couple of weeks because she had a ton to do & she knew I had a lot going on as well but she made it clear all that was to change. From now on its all work & no play. I matched up & posted all of our payables. I counted & sorted out 65 clarisonic brushes.

I got distracted & interrupted quite a few times. Before I knew it it was 4pm.
    After work I picked David up, talked with the in-laws, went to HEB, took the dogs on a walk

& made heroes for dinner. All before 7:30pm.
    I've started watching "the United States of Tara" on Netflix and its so weird. It's about a wife/mother who has multiple personalities. Her alters are bizarre, her kids are super mature & her husband is a saint. Watching this show makes me realize how lucky A & I are to have each other.
    I actually just received a call from A. Something in his orders is incorrect & it could possibly delay his deployment until next week which could mean he'll get to come back home for a couple days... Maybe. I hope.
    Ok A's deployment is officially delayed. He'll get to come back home tomorrow which means we won't be spending Valentines Day alone;)
    OK A has been detoured and will be staying in Norfolk VA until the next flight out. FML. Lonely Valentine's Day it is.