Fate or Fluke

    There are so many questionable things in this world. Who invented toe nail clippers? Why is the sky blue? Donde esta la biblioteca? Where did we come from? What is my purpose? Is there something after this life? Some questions will have an exact & correct answer. Some of them won't. There will also people who accept that there is no answer & there will be people who just don't.
    My husband is a man of Love. He believes fully, that he is in love with me & that we will spend the rest of our lives together. As much as I enjoy the way that sounds the only thing I ever do is question. "Why do you love me?", "What do you love about me?", "How do you know we will last forever?" I know that sounds awful, like I'm purposely trying to sabotage a good thing, but I just want to know how he is so sure even though I am not... Of course I enjoy his company & at this point in my life he is the only man I can imagine being with, but life is so easily swayed. Thing change at the drop of a hat. Sometimes that includes your feelings for someone... In the past 20 years I've had & have outgrown many friendships, so how does he know he wont outgrow me?
    Now my best friend is a woman of God & she believes in the power of prayer, but why? There is a lot to be said for someone who can truly believe in what they've never seen & who can fully love someone they've never met. If you can wholeheartedly believe in & love something that has never once appeared in your life then, there not a doubt in my mind that, you will give yourself wholly to any person you fall in love with.
    Now if anyone who is reading this actually knows me, than you know I'm the kind of person who needs proof when determining what's real & what's not.  If I can't touch it, taste it, hear it, smell it, or see it, than chances are I don't believe it. Because of this I'm very indecisive on things like God & Love. I will never tell you not to believe in the things you believe in but, even if you have "proof", I will probably always continue to ask the same questions..

With all that in mind I want to ask you how you would categorize the following series of events...

Fate • noun

The development of events beyond a person's control, regarded as determined by a supernatural power

vs

Fluke • noun

Unlikely chance occurrence, esp. a surprising piece of luck

This morning while driving to work I was kind of zoning out. Not caring too much about what was on the radio, not noticing the beautiful sunrise, & not giving two sh*ts about the other drivers. I changed lanes & ended up behind a little blue truck with Cowboys bumper stickers & a license plate that started out AE1 (AE is symbolic to A & me, well because it our first name initials, duh!)  & right as I noticed, Carolina Liar- Show Me What I'm Looking For, came on & it just seemed so fitting, but that wasn't it... Every song after, until I got to work, was about A & me. I know it sounds lame but I felt like it was a sign... I used to say that every song on the radio was about me so I'm not sure why this felt so different but it did.

I miss him so much... I'll probably be seeing him everywhere I go. Is it august yet?!

Carolina Liar - Show Me What I'm Looking For

Save me, I’m lost
Oh lord, I’ve been waiting for you
I’ll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I’m looking for
Show me what I’m looking for
Oh lord
Don’t let go
I’ve wanted this far too long

Grace Potter & The Nocturnals - Stars

I can't look at the stars,
They make me wonder where you are
Stars,
Up on heaven's boulevard
And if I know you at all,
I know you've gone too far
So I, I can't look at the stars
All those times we looked up at the sky,
Looking out so far,
We felt like we could fly.
And now I'm all alone in the dark of night,

The moon is shining,

But I can't see the light,

And I can't look at the

Stars,

They make me wonder where you are

Passenger - Let Her Go

You only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go